It is 2:00am, my 1 year old is still waking up to nurse. I have not slept through the night in over a year, my husband snoring loudly in the same room. He has to work tomorrow. He needs his sleep but I have to work too.
I have to work too!
I start thinking of the never ending to do list. Laundry, dishes, breakfast, dishes, vacuum, grocery store, sign the kids school slips, senior night tasks for my oldest, the other one is going to be driving soon, I wonder how my moms health is, I need to go see her, I need to visit my mother in law and it just goes on and on. No one else in my home has these thoughts or feels these responsibilities. It infuriates me sometimes but I have to remind myself how important all these things are even if completely unseen.
I set the coffee maker for my husband to start at 3am, at 8am I pour myself a cup after the big kids are off to school and reheat it. My sweet girl points and says drink, asking for a sip. I tell her she’s too young but one day, I hope she calls me to talk while she drinks her reheated coffee, while the weight of motherhood and marriage, and life all feel heavy. I hope she calls the same way I call my mom. I ask “what ya doing?” My mom almost always replies “drinking my cup of coffee”.
Every morning I drink my cup of reheated coffee, I reset. A little caffeine, a little sugar, and some hydration. I take a few minutes just for myself. Some days when I’m out running errands and frazzled I stop at Starbucks and I alway feel so fortunate to be able to.
So when a mama says she needs her coffee, get her the coffee. The world is heavy and we’re trying to carry it for our families, we need to prep for our day, recharge from the night, and just take minute for ourself before we give the rest of what we have selflessly.
Enjoy your cup of coffee today Mama. You’ve earned it.
Heyy Mama 